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I mostly draw butts and cartoony stuff
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...I can't believe its been almost 7 months since I moved down here, and about 9 months since...well lets not mention that part...
...everything...still feels like it was yesterday...like...wounds still ache, memories are still crisp and clear...
mm...I wish there was a way..for me to slow time down...because realizing how fast time is going by, is making me realize what a failure I am...I'm essentially having (what most people decribe as) a midlife crisis...except I'm only 21/22...
No permit, no job, overweight and not losing fast enough, let alone that, the amount pressure I'm getting down here to move on in my life, isn't helping.
I know, I need to get a job, and I know how to get one, I've called places, I've applied, but I can't make them hire me...
I know I need to lose weight, I know how to lose it, I exercise daily, I eat healthy with very little snacking, but I can't drop the weight fast enough and I seem to stay at one weight or gain..
I know how to get a permit, but in this case, nobody's taken me to the DMV to get it, even when I ask them to take me
I know I'm not in school, I know I have the opportunity to, but unfortunately, I want to get settled first, mainly, I wanna have a fair amount of money to my name, a car, and to pay off that hospital bill that someone in RI stuck me with back in February, so until then, school is the least of my worries.
Let alone all that, I have no human interaction with anyone my age...like, physical interaction...yeah yeah I have my grandparents and the neighbors, but you can't talk with them like you can with friends in your general age range.
The most Interaction I get is with my girlfriend and I skyping everyday, and it works a little bit, but there's no physical appeal to skyping.
I know, I sound like a whiny little bitch, but right now, I'm at my wits end...
I genuinely don't know what to do anymore, and I've realized that this, is the real reason why I cry myself to sleep almost every night. its not because I'm sad, its because I see no hope on the horizon, nothing is going right for me, and all I hear is pressure pressure pressure, and its making my anxiety and depression flare up like mad...
...I've almost considered going back to my old habit of stress release, but I made a promise to a few of my closest friends that I wouldn't do that again...
I'm not looking for help..just some advice
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